Repeat

All I can think of is I just need to repeat my last post.  I really miss my dad.  It sucks.

I am having a serious soul searching dilema, I need to get out of dodge.  Everywhere I look I see him.  I know it will get easier and all that jazz but I honestly just am a terrible person in these parts.  I have no patience and I just cry at the drop of a hat.  It is supposed to get easier.  I think everyone is lying. 

Kaden's first birthday is coming up and all I can think about is how he won't be here for it.  How unfair for Kaden it is that he will never get to experience a Grammy and Pappy shopping trip on his birthday.  How I won't have a picture of dad with him blowing out his first birthday candle.  I could go on and on but all I do is cry. This sucks and is so unfair!